1. i haven’t blogged about my first marathon yet… that was about 9 weeks ago. partly because i’m hoping to have pictures from my mom (which are mostly likely erased, but that’s okay. i looked like a sweaty, weepy sausage in spandex- not pretty). and partly because i know most people don’t really want to read about 26 miles of running.
2. i have often lately wanted to move somewhere where there are no people to deal with. i default to collapsing & being by myself when people frustrate or disappoint me. this is a good quality in a pastor’s wife, yes? no. no it’s not. (and if you’re wondering if you are one of those people, it’s not likely. it’s the people who are right now saying, ‘i’m never frustrating or disappointing!’ yes- you are.) i realize this is blunt & mean. i also realize that i am equally disappointing & annoying & frustrating, in addition to judgmental. God’s not done with me yet.
3. i decided to paint the ceiling in my kitchen the same color as the walls. i love the way it looks, but the ceiling also extends into the family room & mudroom. i will be painting for the next year. (pictures coming when my camera is fixed- never let your 4 year old play photographer with your only camera.)
4. we’ve been reading about sensory integration disorders to help julia lately, and i’ve decided that i have at least 2 of these disorders, if not more. and i’ve diagnosed all of my friends & their kids, too. just kidding about that. but not about me- i’ve definitely got issues.
5. i had a 5th thing, but caroline wants to make a chef’s hat out of colored paper. i think i’ll do that, because saying “no, mommy’s blogging” isn’t probably a ‘good mommy’ move.
happy thursday, friends. spring is coming… hold on.
rachel blazer 
LOVE this post! I need to see a weepy sausage picture. I too have been feeling like I just want to move to no where where no one knows me, I have no expectations, no connections, and basically no pesky feelings! As far as sensory issues I know I have them and I know that Ruby with all of hers is the most beautiful, compassionate, fun, loving, little girl any mother could ever ask for and I wouldn't change a single thing about her even all the hard things!
LikeLike
this is just to say:
if you want to be a better pastor's wife, you should start by wearing more 80s jumper dresses. preferably in denim.
and also: i hope the above comment doesn't move me to the annoying list, because Bex has been seriously on my case about stalking — er, i mean playtime — with caroline.
LikeLike
hey rachel,
it looks like we have the same default. it's an equally bad fit for a pastor!
my friend, anne, blogs about sensory processing disorder and other related things here: http://www.drzachryspedsottips.blogspot.com/ thought you might want to check her out. she's awesome!
LikeLike
hey rachel,
i got your comment…thank you for your prayers. two questions: who are your friends? we'd love to be praying for them as well. secondly, when was julia diagnosed w/ sensory integration disorder? i used to teach preschool special ed, and we've got some concerns about our four-year-old. i'd love to hear more.
have a happy day,
al
LikeLike
I love you thoughts and how genuine you are!
Your twin
LikeLike