i feel like an unlikely pastor’s wife… i don’t live up to the image i’ve created of the lovely, gracious, patient, radiant woman who perfectly supports her pastor husband.
in reality, i am scattered. hurried. sometimes gracious, but more often self-involved and impatient with others. definitely not radiant- most often sweaty (why?? why am i always sweating on sunday mornings?). that’s me- i’m the sweaty pastor’s wife.
i just returned from a retreat for ministry wives for our denomination (EPC).
know what i learned?
there are others like me.
(poor things- i’m not calling you sweaty. maybe you’ve found a more effective anti-perspirant?)
while all the women i met were certainly gracious and lovely, they did not make me feel like they had it all together. they prayed for the same things i pray for. they worry about their church, their husbands, their children and their future in the same ways i worry. they get annoyed- bitter, even; we all get annoyed. they focus on the wrong things, and then feel the Lord turning their attention back to Him. they can’t change everything with a wave of their hands or even a special evening of prayer.
the best thing they have in common with me? sometimes they all wish their husbands had a nice job in a nice office where they go from 8:00-5:00 every day. this was particularly freeing for me, as i think this way about once a month. or i ask if i can move away to a cave where there are no people…
i’m not the only one who feels this way.
or, as my husband says, i’m not crazy.
i have some thoughts. i may blog about them. you don’t have to read them… just a warning. : )